~corset-whore

so i'm nearing my 17th birthday here and even as i say that i feel old. and ive been shoved very quickly into this thing that people call "adult life" or real life if you prefer. I'm taking 4 classes/16 units at college right now and I work 3 days a week at a miserable fucking grocery store. along with balancing that, i'm trying to manage a social life and a boyfriend.
and guess what?

it's hard.

society sees and treats me as an adult even though i legally am not, and though i don't have bills to pay quite yet, this real life thing sucks. i see my coworkers that are the same age or older and they laugh in the face of life and i so badly wish that i could too. but my maturity level strictly forbids me not to. i never really have been a carefree person, but now more than ever i wish i had the courage to be just that. it seems my time of being a 'kid' is almost up and i'm trying like hell to grasp onto one last little part of it. but it's slipping. all i can do now is move forward.

so to all the little ones: don't ever wish that you could grow up faster.
enjoy it while you can.